"It took bites out of her insides 'til she was just a hollow shell.."

127.8

INTAKE:
-Coffee w/ Splenda <5
-Diet soda 0
-freeze dried fruit 45
-low sugar oatmeal 110
-banana 100
binge/purge
meal/purge
-maybe a yogurt or something 100

I know I'm fat.
I'll probably binge again.....ugh!

No!!! I refuse to!!! I will look at thinspo!!! I will eat something enjoyable and nonfattenting to hold me off...But I WILL NOT binge. I fucking despise purging. It's disgusting and I hate that I'm good at it.

Besides, I read that most of the calories consumed are retained nevertheless.

Damn.

"You're going to catch a cold from the ice inside your soul."

I hate winter. I want a treadmill.

I hope you guys are doing great! Christmas is so soon!

I'm sick and weak and I hate it, but I only have one more day of school left! Yay, for the increased opportunity of skipping meals!

I'm sorry, I'm a failure. Today definitely wasn't <500 calories. I'll start tomorrow.
You see, I have a bad habit of just saying "fuck it!" and eating that fucking piece of chocolate or bite of shit pizza. And it all goes downhill from there. Why?

Because I'm fat and disgusting and weak.
This has been a really awful week for me food-wise hasn't it?

I truly hope you guys don't think I'm always like this.
It's just that winter has set in and my seasonal depression is setting up camp with it.Yuck.
Tomorrow= a new start! (and I know I've said that far too many times)

Oh, God that is wretched.

I am so sorry. To myself mostly.

I need to look at some thinspo...I know! I'll make a new thinspo journal! That'll cheer me up. :)
And I'll play my guitar and sing Christmas songs... :)


Jacqueline- Thanks! You must have good taste in music.haha Did you know that I'm planning on naming one of my future kids Jacqueline?

Alright, guys, I'm making a list of reasons to be thin! And ideas?