Hmm?

I've gained so much weight. Time to go back to not eating. I'm not going to be obsessive this time though. I'm just barely going to eat. Simple as that. I'll get skinny again.

Rebellion.

I'm better, dare I say. I haven't purged, starved, cut etc. in quite some time. I can attribute my well being to my keeping busy. I've just been trying to have fun lately...you know, the dirty, teenage fun..staying out late, listening to loud music in the car, midnight swimming, never being home, never being alone..you know the rest. .
To be honest, I hate being alone with my thoughts. I can't stand the recurring ideas that come into my head and weigh me down. I just want to be carefree. I will not let them oppress me.
I hope you all are well.